Circle of life

My grandmother passed away on Tuesday. She had been very ill recently and had been in the hospital over most of the summer.  She was moved from the hospital to a full care nursing facility about a month ago, and I was able to visit her there twice. My last visit was to tell her about the baby.  She was happy, but was so very tired so she didn't say much or have much of a reaction.  She knew though.  And she knew I loved her. Our last words to each other were to to say "I love you". 

Yesterday was a very bittersweet day for me.  We had her viewing last night, so it was a very sad time, but we are also overjoyed at the new life that is growing inside me.  Her funeral was today, and it was so hard to say goodbye.  I'm so glad I got to tell her about this little baby. 

The ultrasound was fantastic.  My sister was able to join me.  The tech took a lot of time, and we saw some wonderful images on the screen.  My little lucky bean has a heart rate of 168bpm, and we were even able to watch it wiggle around a couple of times.  It is measuring perfectly, 7 weeks 4 days on the abdominal view and 7 weeks 6 days on the internal view. 

I've been getting more nausea and a bit of gagging, but so far I've only thrown up a few times. Exhaustion is still the most major symptom I've got.  I can feel a more twinges and stretching down near/in my uterus now too.  I still have moments though, where I feel so totally normal that it seems like it's not really happening.  I'm starting to believe it more and more.  I'm even saying the word "pregnant" out loud now. 

I ordered a fetal Doppler online that I'm waiting to have delivered.  It should be here this coming week and I will hopefully be able to start hearing the heartbeat soon. 

I still need to scan the pictures I got, but I haven't been able to yet.  I'll post them as soon as I can get them done.  

I have the nuchal translucency ultrasound on Oct. 30th.  I plan on telling C that she's going to be a big sister that weekend.  Fingers crossed that everything continues to go well and that our dream of her being a big sister do come true!